Christians: The Best Recruiters for atheism.
For real, how do you get past this?
If I judged sports teams by their fans I would never watch sports. If a city gets burned down after a loss it’s not the quarterback’s fault.
Although, maybe he should have thrown the ball better. But I digress.
With God, a God who is supposed to be all loving how in the world do you go, “Yup that’s legit!” when so many of his followers are hateful bigots or mega-church pastors with jets, who r*pe children or greedy people who take advantage of the poor instead of helping them or people who use God to take advantage of people, etc etc etc etc.
I’m asking. I’m not trying to be a jerk. I want to know. How do YOU do it? I miss feeling close to God.
And a general obvious disclaimer I know a lot of amazing Christians—kind sweet, honest people. I’m married to one!
But I also know a lot of sweet Buddhists, Hindus, Jews etc.
I’m trying not to give up. I’m praying every day. People say it’s a test but there is NO WAY GOD IS THAT INSECURE. Maybe it’s just a “season” as Christians say, but I’m dealing with a long ass winter and it’s hot outside.
How do you find God if not in church? Well, obviously the answer is DRUGS!
Sorry.
But like, that's how I did it. We will discuss that another time.
In the last few weeks when I’ve felt close to God, it’s not because of the bible or church. It's CERTAINLY not because of Christians - one of them called me an insufferable pussy yesterday- thanks handsome.
Sidenote- one time one of the Westboro Baptist church daughters wrote me and said she was praying I get cancer so I wrote her back and just said...” are you flirting with me?”
The reason that I'm not dead after this month is cause despite my best efforts I HAVE felt God recently.
I have found god is in nature, from meditation (which I learned from Buddhists), laughter, music, and my cat.
For real, my cat is more Christlike than most of yall, and she bites me sometimes.
So how does that work? Does that mean there isn't a Christian God? That there are other Gods? That God is everywhere and unconditional?
Here is my answer and something a lot of Christian influencers won't tell you...I DON'T FUCKING KNOW!
But when I wrote about this the other day on INSTAGRAM some glorious not hateful people said, that IS God.
It’s where YOU find God that is God. Richard Rohr found Christ in his dog Venus and I found mine in my little sonofabitch menace cat Cozzy Bear.
A commenter told me to bring my bible next time to those places. It’s a sweet thought but if I tried to pick up the bible while petting my cat she would go to hell for angrily knocking that shit right to the floor.
There is part of me that wanted to write how Christians need to be better ambassadors, to represent Christ on earth, and to make church such a welcoming place that it is THE FIRST spot someone who is struggling wants to go.
Another part of me is thinking, fuck that, if you find God through listening to pop punk in the woods on mushrooms then go do that.
Does it make you love God, the earth, the environment, your neighbor, your enemies? Then lean into it.
I really love you guysand really love the people working it out with us on TRAUMA BONDING. Much love to the Sad Panda Army.