Depression while the world explodes.
Sometimes it feels like you can't catch a break. Like you are doing all the self help. Becoming a better person. Standing up for the right people. Working your ass off and still just drowning. There are SO many more important things happening in the world than my depression, but also, I feel like there may be people out there, like me, who feel bad for being depressed about their own problems right now and I just want to say you aren't alone.
Things are really hard right now for a lot of people… so you feel like a selfish asshole when you want to die (me) and you aren’t being detained deported or having your health care taken away. Like who the fuck am I to be sad right now?
But man, life is hard. It’s hard when you are doing the right things, it’s hard when you are doom scrolling to see the bad things, so you can make a podcast ironically, to cheer everyone up.
It’s hard to just be around so much cruelty. I make jokes about it on this weeks show, but getting threatened for wanting people to get healthcare, BY A CHRISTIAN is wild.
I’m not sure the solution yet, but I know I’ll keep covering these stories till it destroys me and I’ll keep trying to be funny and positive through it all.
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Love you guys so much, and I think the more we speak out for others, and speak up about ourselves we really can live in a beautiful world.
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Hey friend,
I just want to take a moment to tell you that you are so seen. What you’re expressing here is raw, honest, and deeply human. You’re carrying so much — your own pain, the world’s pain, and the complicated guilt of feeling like your struggles shouldn’t matter when so many others are suffering “worse.” But that’s the thing: pain doesn’t work on a ranking system. There’s no universal scoreboard measuring whose hurt is “valid enough” to be felt. Your pain matters because you matter.
It’s okay to feel tired, defeated, and even angry when it feels like life keeps handing you one heavy wave after another, even as you’re trying to be a light for other people. That exhaustion doesn’t mean you’re failing; it means you’re human. And it’s exactly why your voice is so important — because you speak to all the others who feel the same but don’t know how to say it out loud.
You’re showing up for others, making them laugh, comforting them, fighting for them — and that takes courage beyond measure. But you also deserve that same compassion turned inward. You deserve rest. You deserve gentleness. You deserve moments of joy that aren’t overshadowed by the weight of the world.
The fact that you can hold so much grief and still believe in a beautiful world — that you can keep creating, keep speaking up, and keep loving — is not just admirable, it’s sacred.
Please know you aren’t alone, not even close. There are so many of us standing right beside you, rooting for you, holding you up on the days you can’t do it yourself.
Thank you for your honesty, your humor, your advocacy, and your heart. I hope you get the support you need — the kind that makes you feel held and not just heard. And until that beautiful world arrives, we’ll keep building it together, one small act of bravery and kindness at a time.
Love you back. Keep going. You’re not alone.