To the 10k people who showed up
Aloha friends, just wanted to post something here that I wrote on Instagram cause it somehow ties into politics, self worth, hope and doubt. This is the original long and full version before I had to chop it for ADD social media.
Have the best week! The full post with CAT PIC is HERE
Hello, my name is Jamie, I have depression, hope, jokes, and a cat. I want to welcome the almost 10k new followers here.
First off, I need to say that this is not about followers, but decency and lost hope. Followers are a measuring stick because in the weird clown job I’ve chosen for myself that is how you judge success.
In my next life I hope to be a teacher or a monk.
The reality is I got really depressed when I lost thousands of followers this year. YES because I am a millennial who get’s his worth from the internet - but mostly I was like, “where did I go wrong to attract so many hateful people to my page?” and then the larger stoned teenager epiphany of, “why are there so many hateful people in the world period?”
It’s not like I lost them cause I put on black face, or accidentally posted a picture of my dong, I lost them for, what I thought we could all agree on. Don’t bully people less fortunate. Don’t hurt kids. Don’t kill kids.
These aren’t BIG asks.
I have tried to reach out to people I disagree with, I have listened, I have changed my mind, I have failed, and I have bounced all over the place as a lot of us do when we are trying to figure out who the fuck we are.
This is why I created the podcast. For people like us.
But where I have always drawn the line is hate. If I am hanging out with liberals, comedians, atheists, fighters, christians, conservatives, etc, I just can’t with hate. None of us should be able to deal with hate. Especially if you believe you are children of God.
So I made that post that blew up expecting to lose more people. I was done with losing people taking me by surprise and just thought fuck it. Let’s blow the whole thing up.
Then something happened and it took off. Lots of you related, supported, or someone broken like you trying their best in a really hard world. And I want to thank you.
When I started speaking out again for the less fortunate (because of Jesus not lack thereof Christians who unfollowed me.) I was only seeing losses and I felt crazy. Losses in finances, invites, and then followers. I felt insane.
Will 10k followers pay the bills, shut down ICE, or help me like myself? Absolutely not. But was it just enough to keep me fighting? Yep.
I am so honored to have you as part of this sad panda army misfit community. If I can ever be of service or you want me to talk about something on the show please always reach out. I’m a voice memo gal so you might even hear from me.
Sending all the aloha, Jamie